if one day i cant protect anymore, please do me a favor..
you need me and i will always be at your side because it will be hard for me to say this face to face, i want you to know that mother may have given me life. but you taught me how to love again.

Always remember to take care of yourself, first and foremost, because when you stop taking care of yourself, you get out of balance and you really forgot how to take care of other. We all feel lost sometime.

I dont feel myself today, indeed. But I keep telling myself It’s gonna get better
But it’s taking forever, I tried to go out but every time I leave the house
Something reminds me of what’s now behind me. Might take a hundred sleepless nights. Home on an empty highway
I thought about you and I hit the brakes, Who we were was so clear. I am sick of staring up at the ceiling every morning.

Do you ever realize before you sleep, we used to think about our life. Sometime tear drop without we realizing or cry alone thinking about, our mistake that we made, struggle with unbalance life, what will happened to our life tomorrow after we wake up, think about love, and challenge ahead of us .

I hope anyone who read this, always persevering success and stay strong to hold this life. Always believing you can, and you always can.

Every picture’s painted differently, every one has got a vision in their mind. That fills the heart with answers, and the missing piece that we hope to find. Who was I, really?
Looking for perfection and never quite reach it,
There’s no sense of the whole, each image is a mysterious part of something not yet revealed.
Darling soul fits where mine feel empty, heart exists where mine feels drowning.

Polaroid photos looking like a movie scene, I remember when we used to laugh out loud, how we used to do some crazy time machine things, Those are the memories worth remembering no matter 20 year later or more, even when down, even when you’re not happy. I stay there always just there, like a statue of kudarat. You’re are hiding your Voice away from me, When i see you in the night, just want to feel your touch. hour pass so fast, Those memory i dont know what it actually mean, Those broken pieces of her i try to fix, Those star sign i can feel. All i know, I am not alone. Blinded by the sunset, trying hard to stop the rain. Your smile are worth the wait.
Shy and Loved you.
Always.

My restless soul, Restless day and sleepless night always fighting with all your heart and soul so as not to fail at living, just ignore everything came to destroy the night, I suppose even when i was growing up, i noticed i was happy to see the pink sky and the morning glory. I was absorbed in something, lost in the moment and forgot the time, whether was conversation, smile, or just passing by, like drug itself, that was my definition of happiness and i was least happy when i was all over the place. A man does not die of heartless or his liver or even of old age he dies of being a man. I am not addicted to alcohol or drug, i’m addicted to escaping reality of my own. This life depend on the noise outside of me, My heart has sought a thing i cannot name distracted and restless me,

Being drunk i forgot how to be myself, forget about my crown, and pride forget about me. lay down very dizzy in the mind of a wise man to stop being impressed by money, fame, status. instead, be impressed by those  who treat other human beings well, in both good time and bad. Its not about perfect, its about effort and when you bring that effort every single day. that where transformation happens. that how change occurs.thee shall be consistent, be hard work  dreaming that one day will payoff. The world is like a jungle. you either fight and dominate or hide and evaporate. wise drunk man lay down in the office table, foolish to quit how to be myself.

Where such world would never existed in reality, May world be in your mind and the heart of the stone. I am the protagonist of this story, The king itself. Today I am already a thousand year old man walk on Earth so called a Sage that giving human a light and a way for better tomorrow. It is both blessing and a curse to feel everything, and in the end, all i learned was how to be strong alone.